I feel my lipgloss smear as our lips touch
and I lose control
as the devil inside comes to life
and oh you culd be my savior
and you could be my all
i cant take missing you tonight
im afraid of being lonely
im losing all my judgement
in this moment i live forever
its taking me out of mysef and into the fire
and i think i could love you a
nd im falling fast
please tell me youll make it last
ill let you break me because you wake me up
from my slumber
i feel everything and this heat is too much
lets get out of here
im losing touch
with who i am and where we are
lets leave it all behind and become gods
we could save the world tonight
just you and me with this kiss i
ve never known something like this
im putting everything in and letting it all out
who cares if i get hurt
youve turned me inside out
i want to feel you
to taste every peice of you
your skin is sparking as it touches mine
and were so entertwined
i cant tell the difference between us
so lets drift away
let the world leave us be
i could die here right now
and forever be happy

In my dreams I see you
In the night I hear you
But I know it isn't real
Just a faded memory
Something to bring me down
When I'm alreay blue
But somehow I can't find a way
To not be stuck on you
Love is my downfall
Caring is my weakness
I can't carry on til I have you
I'm lost and I'm afraid
And I know I can never have you
And goodbye is never enough
Just save me now from this misery
Just pretend for me, act for me
We're all human and we're all fakes
At least I'll have a way to survive
Come be my drug and I'll be your addict
No one can save me from myself but you
And we'll never have to die alone

tonight i poor my heart and and leave the gore here with you this isnt as it should be i died the minute she said we were through all i seeis her face in tis black hole weve created my devotion fades to nothing as the tragedy unfolds

Feast on my bones and set me on fire who wouldve thought this love would expire i cant live through the pain anymore i cant even feel my heart in tis storm

my veins are seeping sadness and my eyes are leaking madness how did i get this way i really cant be ehere today calling out for the end i cant open myself to this again she left me like roadkill on thiscold street ofdesire

Feast on my bones and set me on fire who wouldve thought this love would expire i cant live through the pain anymore i cant even feel my heart in tis storm

she loved me like a vampire and sucked me dry then moved onto the next human and sparkled them with her eyes i dont want this anymore my life is sick and its all i can do to keep from lashing out

Feast on my bones and set me on fire who wouldve thought this love would expire i cant live through the pain anymore i cant even feel my heart in tis storm

look me in the eyes and kiss me goodbye my love is long gone but the world must live on

Breaking

I used to be invincible now im just invisible
You say I'm not living my potential
But I guess I knew that
And you never cared
Even when you're there you're so far away
But I'm already gone
Just running but never moving on
I'm here in yor shadow
Can't see through to the light
I'm tired of watching it bend while I break
Just hold on tight
Here comes the tide to sweep me out again
And I haven’t any legs to walk away
So here I am
Don't know if I'm drifiting towards you or away from us
This fight's too hard to win
But giving up will be losing
And oh, I don’t know what I can live without

Past is never Past

So, I've been hanging out with Kevin a lot lately. I'm actually pleasantly suprised because he's grown up so much. He makes good money, he's responsible, he cares about things, he has plans for his future....if he can turn things around like that I don't understand why Robert can't Robert was more mature than Kevin to start with, so he's certainly capable. He's 26, and he's already given up.
I saw Justin for the first time in a long time. He barely talked, and he doesn't seem happy. I know he hasn't really changed, and he says things about me behind my back, but he is suffering. Not that he doesn't deserve it cuz he definately does, and I know it's not my fault or problem, but it makes me a little sad that he had to end up this way-that either of us did.
Three months of marriage and everyone already thinks it's time for divorce. Life is cruel, I thought I could finally say haha look I matter andmy life's great, but after all this here I am again just married and already having huge issues. It's just devastating.

Diet

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACKK!!!! So, I found this new diet that's supposed to be not just a quick fix, but something to make me healthier you know reverse all the insulin issues and stuff. Well, it's making me HUNGRY!!!!! But it's really not so bad the food's great. The cheese is great, the coffee's great, even the bread's great. It's just less to eat than I'm used to. I think I'm gonna finally get my Carmen Electra tapes and a pole and do that. Maybe I can get my bartender lisence ad totally be a coyote when I get skinny and hot again. THAT would be a fun job people. O and I'm so excited about The Mortal Instruments becoming a movie. I've been looking through people's dream cast listings all day hoping that someone has a good idea for Jace. He's the only one I can't picture any of these actors as. What's sad is Heath Ledger would be perfect, but he's gone. It's so sad. Two young celebrities dead recently. Crazy huh? I got a nanny job offer 300 a week for just two days. It's some British woman with two kids-a boy and agirl. I'd have to cook, but they're young. Hope that works out.
Laterz
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Celebrity Couple

Okay guys, so who else thinks it's totally kool that Evan Rachel Wood and Marylin Manson are engaged? Ya, he's an older man, but he is a hottie! I'm a year younger than her, and I'd totally go for it.

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